Desperately Susan?

Well if you are wondering why the Desperately Susan web address...I was being silly and thinking of the lead Character in Desperately Seeking Susan. I was thinking it's about time that I start seeking out my dreams. Don't get me wrong I have so many of my dreams right now, an awesome husband, two beautiful children, a great job and wonderful friends but I miss so many things in life. I miss my creative side and have been to shy since the weight gain. I miss my old crazy girl self who did not think about weight and food all the time and thought about singing and dancing and choreographing flags. I have been missing that so much! So there you go...Desperately Susan? maybe not but definitely Seeking Lorraine!!!

Sound Track Makes The Difference

This morning was rather hard after working out last night! I had too many endorphins pumping last night to get to sleep at a good time and then wake up early in the morning and try to work out like I would like. I did note that the sound track of my workout is extremely important. I started working out to fast paced dance music which I normally love to dance to and workout to. The workout became to much "work" and I tried changing my music to the Tron Legacy sound track which surprisingly changed my work out to a creative time instead of just a workout. I ended up using my time to try shutting out all the distractions and concentrate on the feeling of the workout as well as the feelings racing through my body. I started dreaming of choreography for winter guard and creating other things such as paintings in my mind. Several times I found myself closing my eyes and just concentrating on the music and it's beauty. I guess if your sound track is wrong then the workout can truly be work! Glad I got my workout in before hitting the road today! Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!

Never Ever....

Had a great workout tonight! Did an hour of cardio with 40 minutes on the tread mill and 20 on the bike and some wonderful stretching. I spoke with a guy who wanted to coach me on my new workout plan. 30 dollars a session. I know that is reasonable but I just can't afford that right now. I suppose it might be alright to have my husband coach me since he is a certified coach. I told him I just want you to tell me what to do and how to do it and let me keep myself accountable with my other Coach Heather Fuselier. Things with her have been great so far and we are setting goals which I love! So we will see how that goes! As far as what not to do... Never weigh yourself at the end of the day if you weighed yourself at the beginning of the day because it could make you want to cry even if you have been great all day long and did a great workout! Oh well. You learn the hard way...right?! I hope I can get up in the morning for my next workout!

Starting Picture from Christmas Party

I absolutely hate pictures taken of me right now but hopefully that will change! Here is a picture from this Christmas's Orbea party! It was so much fun!

Back to working out!

What a funny night was last night as I headed back to the gym after a few days of trying to fight eating food that could only make me fatter at the in-laws. What a hard time deciding when to say no and when to give in a little. Last night at the gym I felt so silly having my I-phone strapped to my arm with short sleeves on. I could see the my chunky arm with the big elastic band attached. I kept telling myself... "no one will be worried about it but you and soon that arm will not be so big". My goal was to make it on the tread mill for an hour without any complications. I began walking at a pace of 2.5 miles per hour and every ten minutes upped the speed .2 miles per hour until I got to 3.2 miles per hour. I think at some point I jumped past the .2 miles every ten minutes. I jogged a little but was not sure if I was jogging or mainly bouncing a little more with my fast walk. My shortened legs from weight gain seemed to move much slower than they used to but I was happy they were moving at all.
As I was working out I could not help but look around and look at others working out. I tried to imagine what it felt like being in their bodies. I felt like I was window shopping for a new me but laughed as I saw a pair of young women working out that had come in and had matching pink on. One girl had her pink pants on and as she weight lifted popped big pink bubble gum bubbles while the other had on her matching pink shirt and took to the tread mill. It was rather cute. I felt like I was missing out on the fun. I still do not have anyone to work out with but I thought of going to the gym as going to the spa. My alone time! My quiet retreat away from everything in my life. It was absolutely wonderful! The only weird thing was as I stepped off the tread mill about 50 steps later the balls of my feet began to hurt. They felt like blisters forming on my feet! aghhhhh! Today however they feel much better but a little tender. I think maybe I will work out tonight on the bike... we will see! Off to grab my water and start looking for my workout clothes that will not chafe!
Starting weight as of this morning: 255
GOAL: Head to gym for an hour of Cardio Tuesday, Wednesday, THursday, Saturday
Drink 3 bottles of water a day
Take supplements
Begin working on stretches
log all food intake on myfitnessplan.com
weigh in on Wednesdays!
Take Measurements on Next Wednesday